Want more for yourself. I do.
I want so much more for you. Not in an overly-busy-super-chaotic more, not a cram-your-life-full-of-distractions more but a reach-out-and-embrace-your-life more, a turn-your-yearning-for-fulfilment-into-action more, a knowing-that-time-is-limited more, an acceptance-that-you-are-pure-brilliance-and-have-the-power more.
When I hear you rave about your projects and dreams I am in awe of your light, when you share your visions I am captivated by your passion. You lift me with your words, you ignite everyone with your dreams. You speak of your empowered vision to make a change, to help others, to be of service. To live in your joy as an example to others.
Then the excuses come, your light dims, fear comes out from the shadows and turns to heaviness.
You speak of obligations, hurdles, barriers, to you they feel real and raw, they shackle you they keep you fixated on the elements of your life that you hate. I wonder why you do this over and over, I feel your deep pain. In your mind the blocks squash your dreams, from the outside, to me, they look like thin veils you could swish aside but to you I know that they look like solid, painful walls you can’t see past.
Want more for yourself my dear friend. I do. We all do.
I am here for you but I can’t do the work, your work. I am here for you but the actions you need to take are yours not mine. I am here for you but you alone have got to have the courage to choose your joy over fear.
I watch you accept situations that don’t illuminate you and your causes. I see you give into obligations that serve no greater good. I watch you choose everything else and never yourself. And I wonder why. I try to understand.
You think choosing the tough path, the road you are summoned to walk on makes you a good mum, a devoted wife, a better friend, you are so selfless like that. Truth is we all want to see you choose YOU, we all want to see you embrace the change you desire. We are all at your back, we can give you little nudges, sometimes I worry that the truth is many of us will hold you back without even meaning to and you will stay with us for as long as we hold on but you need to jump, because you are not living our lives, you are living yours. I fear you don’t fully understand how it is slipping away, I fear you don’t see that your dreams aren’t meant to be packed away while you make sure everyone else is ok, I fear you might never realise that your dreams are slipping away with every excuse, block, obligation and fear you give into.
Why do you do this? No really. Why?
I know you feel the yearning in your soul to move beyond the limitations, going to that shitty job you hate, accepting situations you have the power to change, staying quiet when it’s time to speak up. Why? Your ideas are brilliant, your passion is real, your causes are valuable. What is it that gives you the belief that you are not good enough to live them out in this life, now. What makes you feel that people aren’t waiting for you to rise. We need you. You need you.
What if it’s the only one we have? This life? What if there are no more chances? Why are you stuck holding on to inaction and confusion when the only time to move is now. You are good enough, you can do it, and you know how. Why won’t you?
I’m asking because I really want to know. I’m asking because I hope it guides you to feel into the answers, to understand them and to make an almighty shift. Now.
If you don’t live your life, really live it, then who will? Your boss? Your fear? The job you hate going to? Who?
I know you wouldn’t share all of the heart songs that you do with me if you didn’t hold some belief that you are worthy. You are so much more than worthy, you are a mirror of all the beauty and strength you admire in others, you are a reflection of the breathtaking wonder that is the entire universe before you.
My friend, please want more for yourself. I do. I know you do too but now is the time to really show it, now is the time to step up and dance, that insurmountable wall just crumbled so you can move forward with courage and grace. We’ve got your back sister. Want more for yourself.